In this painting, I sought to capture the visceral experience of self-harm. The canvas is marked by tangible textures, scratches, and scars, especially around the depicted figure. As part of this series, the textured scarring becomes more pronounced on the figure's skin, body, and hands, revealing the internal roughness now manifesting externally. The figure adopts a protective pose, concealing the face, symbolizing my attempt to hide my true self and emotions during that period. There was a palpable sense of shame surrounding these tumultuous feelings. Expressing them risked reprimand, reinforcing self-blame, or causing others to view me differently. My anguish and self-loathing remained veiled; scars were concealed, and the narrative remained untold. For society often shies away from confronting such darkness.
(Note: If you're feeling depressed or a danger to yourself or others, it's essential to speak with a mental health professional or a trusted individual in your life.)